I can’t believe we’re already a quarter of the way through 2018! Where does the time go?! I thought I’d update on my goals and resolutions to hopefully help me refocus.
The new year started off with ambitious but not unobtainable goals and I had started working towards them, I was reading instead of listening to music or podcasts on the subway, I started TRUE 30 Day Yoga, which I was doing most nights, and I was looking into starting back up with horseback riding lessons.
And then everything derailed.
In mid-January my family received some devastating news. The doctors were no longer able to treat my grandpa’s lymphoma. He passed away several weeks later. Since his palliative diagnosis I struggled with my grief, crying for no reason, and losing interest in anything other than sleeping. I basically went through the motions, showing up for my responsibilities and returning home to curl up on the couch. I didn’t want to clean, or shop, or cook, or talk about it. I just existed. For weeks.
Slowly the fog cleared, the winter days started to get longer, and I started to get back to my normal. I started riding again, I’ve been reading, writing (and deleting and rewriting and never quite perfecting anything enough to share it with the world), and generally just getting back to living. In March I went on a short holiday to Cuba with my aunt, my mum, and my sister. It felt like the weight of the world had lifted off my shoulders for a short while. When I got home, it was back like a shadow I couldn’t shake. I don’t know if it was reconnecting with technology, the dismal weather, or the travel blues but coming home just got me down again so as I work on getting myself back on track what I really want to do is focus on being wellness, and spending time with family and friends.
Wishing you all well ♡